On beginnings
Beginnings can be scary and overwhelming, but above all they should push us to flow further and not freeze in fear.
It’s June 2023, and I find myself in Cancun, Mexico—the day I've eagerly awaited for: the start of my first long-term solo backpacking trip. Over the past few months, I've diligently prepared by saving money, purchasing clothes and equipment, and bidding farewell to my loved ones.
As I wake up after a humid night in my air-conditioned room, the jetlag hits me, and I hastily jump out of bed, venturing out onto the streets. The heavy heat engulfs me, matching the weight I feel within. However, along with the heatwave comes a surge of doubt. I'm mentally paralyzed, unable to make decisions or take action. I find myself running back and forth between the bus stop and Walmart, seeking Wi-Fi connectivity.
It eventually dawns on me that I'm not enjoying myself. I had envisioned myself as a fearless solo traveler, conversing in Spanish, navigating buses, and improvising as I went along. Yet, there I was, stranded by my own indecisiveness, seeking refuge in a Starbucks café.
I realized the need to gather myself and sort through my thoughts. I had set unrealistic expectations that were paralyzing me. I had envisioned myself as a seasoned and experienced traveler, while in reality, everything felt entirely new. The surroundings, the pace, the temperature, and the language—everything demanded a period of adjustment. I couldn't simply find immediate ease.
It's imperative to recognize that every growth process involves a certain level of discomfort. During this crucial phase, it's essential to take the time to acknowledge our emotions. While pushing ourselves beyond our comfort zones is necessary, it shouldn't come at the expense of our happiness.
If you find yourself overwhelmed, as I did that morning, don't give up. Take a moment to recollect yourself, breathe deep, and appreciate the opportunity for personal growth. When you feel ready, venture out again and give it another try. Eventually, you'll reach your goals, and all the worrying that once consumed you will feel like a distant, outdated version of yourself.
Blog out,
Durim
